I’m getting married, Tono…

The wind blew gently, ruffling the brooding guitarist’s hair. He frowned deeper, shaking his head to get the stray strands of hair out of his view. Hisashi took a long, deeper drag of his cigarette and exhaled slowly, watching the smoke tango with the breeze and flit away. He leaned against the railing and tried to relax, willing away unwanted memories. He clenched his fist and stared at the evening sky. Why me? Unclench. What the fuck is wrong with me? Clench.

“What’s wrong with you today, Tono?”

Hisashi snapped out of his reverie and glared at the owner of the voice. “Nothing.”

Teru smiled, worry apparent in his brown eyes. He walked up beside him and rested his elbows on the railing. The older man didnt seem to notice the slight malice in his glare at having his 'alone' session intruded.. “I see. So you’re sure there isn’t any reason that you were extremely quiet and messing up a lot during practice just now?”

Hisashi stayed silent, eyes glued on a soaring bird.

You can’t give me what I want, Tono…

What? What can’t I give you? I’ll give you anything you ask for! Anything you ask me to, I’ll do. Why? Why marriage? Do you even love her?

“Tono, you know you can talk to me about anything,” Teru tried again. “It isn’t healthy to keep it all in you. I’m sure that whatever problem you’re having, we can solve it together.”

Can you carry my children, Tono?

….................. Jiro, I...-

I have no choice in this. My father wants me to carry on the family name, it is my reponsibility. I have to, Tono…

Hisashi cocked his head, smiling bitterly. “Really, it’s nothing. I… I just have some woman problems.”

Teru stared at the other man for a while, not really believing. Finally he nodded, “Let’s go in then. Takura’s pissy attitude should be gone by now. We should continue practice.” He smiled and gestured to the door, pulling the smaller man with him.

Hisashi hesitated. “Ano Tekko, just one thing I’d like to ask you."

"Shoot."

"Well, this has been on my mind laterly. In your opinion... ano, what would you do if the person you loved had to leave you?”

“Ara~ so that’s the problem?” Teru breathed, a thoughtful look on his face. “For me, if the person had to leave me because she doesn’t love me any more i'd let her go. But if somehow, if she did feel for me. If she still had feelings for me and still loved me, no matter how little... I'd fight for her." Teru turned his gaze to him and grinned, "I'd win her back."

"I still love you, Hisa-chan… Don’t you ever forget that."

He tasted salty and bittersweet all at the same time.

~End~